nOt My PiCk

I really wanted my first blog to be lighthearted, fun, oozing with the abundant life that is made available with happy cheery overtones, possibly with a whimsical title something like “tickled pickled!” But one lesson I have learned about this life, is that it’s “not my pick!”

Over and over I have seen that You know best and thankfully You have my best interest at heart, and things I would never have picked for myself have turned out to be the very things that have grown me and shaped me to be just a little more like You on my way to You!

Today my heart is very heavy so this morning when You woke me at 4:30 I did not even argue about getting out of bed. I could not wait to sit with You and beg you for direction and see how You would guide me!

Yesterday you pointed me to Ephesians 6 where I was reminded of the armor we are to put on! It is hard to believe by an act of my will in obedience to You that You will give me “Your strength and Your power” that I desperately need to make it through. And today you point again to the very same verse (I love it when you do that!).

This armor will “help me to stand against the schemes of the devil (who is always at work to destroy) for my struggle is not against flesh and blood (that I can see) but against the rulers, authorities, and powers of the dark world and spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realm (that I cannot see).” So I would be crazy NOT to put on this armor and wrong to misidentify the enemy!

TRUTH – belt of truth buckled around my waist
RIGHTEOUSNESS – breastplate of righteousness
READINESS – feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace
FAITH – shield of faith to extinguish flaming arrows
SALVATION – helmet of salvation
WORD – sword of the spirit, which is the Word of God

The whole of these identifies me with You, and puts me on Your team and says I am supported by You. This is how you prepare me for the battle.

However, even with that said, I still have feelings of hopelessness because of the size of this task. The prayers that Stormie Omartian suggests praying (from The Power of Praying for Your Adult Children) seem impossible even though I know it is true that “nothing is impossible with You!” ( Luke 1:37). So I “come boldly to Your throne of grace with confidence to receive mercy and find grace in this time of need!” (Heb 4:16). And I am praying against this feeling of hopelessness and instead I will pray for a way when there seems to not be one. I am asking for direction to uncloud my confusion. I am asking for a plan because I have learned through trial and error that I do not want to do mine, but Yours! And please give me a love like Yours so that I would be a reflection of your unconditional never ending beautiful lovingkindness that reaches beyond anything and anyone. Give me wisdom to discern what is best “that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight so that you may be able to discern what is best” (Phil 1:9-11).

That is a lot to ask, but You say it is there for the asking! So I am trusting that You will:
Make a way even though I can’t see one
​Give me direction because I need to know what to do
​Pitch a plan because everything goes better with a plan
​Help me to show love through it all because You are love
​Give me wisdom to discern what is best because You know and I don’t

And with a heavy heart, I will suit up in the armor You have designed just for me, and I will go forward with confidence knowing that “not my pick,” but Yours, will teach me today! Help me not to miss it!

2 thoughts on “nOt My PiCk

  1. Debbie, What a blessing you are! To share your heart and the application of our LORD’s soothing words is an example of the right pick! 😉 I know that our LORD is faithful and the act of obedience is always met with blessings. As we cast our burdens on Him, He cares for us. Isn’t it a privilege to take everything to Him in prayer. He is the Light in our dark times that illuminates the path in front of us as He goes before us and yet protects our flank.
    Blessings and love to you, my dear sister in the LORD. mindy
    Psalm 91

    1. Thank you sweet Mindy! You are so right that “our Lord is faithful” and “He cares for us!” and yes such a privilege to “take everything to Him in prayer!” My heart has lightened all throughout today because of Him!!! Thankful for his 24/7 attention! I am crazy about Him because He was crazy about me first!! 🙂 Thanks for trekking with me!!

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